Would i be able to?

Where the fuck am i headed to?

Feel like everything is just higher level than me. Like i cant escape this misery.

Would i be able to make it eventually??

I hope so. I dont know i just feel like med school is just not my thing. Its just too faraway from me, ya know?

And i should prove myself, to the world, now that im not going to any good university or sth.

And thats gonna fuck my ass of.

But, its ok, yeah, i think it is. Because success is not as hard as those days, ya know? Now u change in line with your process, and doing things is not as hard as they used to be, but the thing is, there is the factor of chance, that i hope i can overvome but, anyways,

Im enjoying my life. I think i have peace now. And the more i go forward, the more i feel more united and consistent.

Well the truth is, i can never know for sure, how would i felt if i had read these books those days, but, now i have peace. I really love it

And i need more of this stuff af. I need to help myself and my mind more. Im gonna break this sick cycle. Im not gonna lose like the last time, hopefully